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Aug. 1st, 2012

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Can't understand why people are the way they are
You think you two are close but you're really super far
Far in how you feel about each other, and what you wan't outta life
So far spiritually, emotionally, I'd never wanna be your wife
I'd rather be in prison, in a shelter or even dead
You made so many promises, but didn't mean anything you said
We really could have had it all, I would've always stood by your side
but you fucked it all up, with your deceit and your FUCKING LIES!!!!

YOU USED ME FOR ALL I HAD YOU ARE ONE SICK FUCK
BUT WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND, ALL I CAN SAY IS GOOD LUCK ;)

Jul. 10th, 2012

Hate.Love

I HATE YOU SO MUCH YOU'RE AN ASSHOLE, A PRICK
YOU'RE A FUCKED UP PERSON, IN THE BRAIN YOU ARE SICK


YOU LIE SO MUCH JUST TO GET YOUR FUCKING WAY
LEARN TO SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY


YOU ANNOY ME SO MUCH WITH YOUR BULLSHIT AND GAMES
JUST FOR PUTTING UP WITH YOU I FEEL SO ASHAMED


ASHAMED FOR BEING WEAK AND STAYING WITH A LIAR LIKE YOU
I WISH YOU'D ACTUALLY DO THE THINGS YOU SAY YOU'LL DO


YOU'RE A LIAR, A BASTARD A COLD-HEARTED SNAKE
FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU WAS MY BIGGEST MISTAKE



YOU'RE A LIAR, A DECIEVER, A MANIPULATOR AND A DICK
BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IT JUST MAKES ME FUCKING SICK


HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU YOU'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND
YOU SHOULD TAKE LESSONS ON HOW TO BE A BETTER MAN



Apr. 27th, 2012

(no subject)

Tired of people letting me down
Turning my smile into a frown
Empty promises i've heard em all
Don't even catch me when I fall

Used and abused is how I feel
My true feelings i'll always conceal
Just want to find someone real.

Alone and trapped, in deep despair,
My heart feels stepped on, ware n tear,
Deep down truly no one will ever see
The good kind souL deep inside of me

Because people always let me down
Turning hope in all people all around,
When they use and abuse me I go into deep despair,
I wish someone was real and would actually care.

People tell you what you want to hear
Use and abuse you, then disappear.
As the tears roll down my lonesome face,
I feel i'm trapped and bewildered, without a place.

Nowhere in this world, Broken deep down inside
I want to go under a rock, stay there and hide.

My life gets miserable day by day,
because people say what they want, but don't mean what they say.

Sep. 12th, 2010

I swear to God IM DONE!!!

I'm done trying to be friends with people and going out of my way to make sure everyone is having a good time because at the end of the day i'm the one who is the fool for doing this because these lame ass fucking new york bitches only care about themselves.

I'm done, I don't need friends, I don't need to get close to other people or any of that fucking bullshit!! I'm sooo totally fucking done and i'm putting time into my damn self and what the fuck I want to do and i'm not worrying about anyone else, and i'm not getting to know anyone else.. I don't need friends.. all I need is myself and my family.





Sep. 5th, 2010

Happy Birthday Papa!

Today is my fathers birthday!! I'm so happy, I love my dad sooo much and we had a 5 hour long conversation and i'm about to cry because i'm soooo happy. I love my father so much and I just thank him sooo much for all of the support he has given me to be a stronger woman, and i'm sooo fortunate to have a family that loves me for who I am and is proud of the person that I am. I'm so glad that my father and I can actually talk about things now, my life really is starting to get happier as time goes on, I'm just coming to terms with everything and every wound I put a band-aid on is now healing fully. I LOVE MY LIFE!! I LOVE MY DAD!!! AND I WISH I WAS THERE FOR HIS BIRTHDAY!!! I swear to god, i'm going to make my father sooo much more proud of me and i'm going to do all of the right things from here on out !!

Sep. 4th, 2010

HAPPPYYY

Everything is starting to get EVEN MORE BETTERRRR!!!

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!


but yeah, i went out today, hmm grocery shopping too.. and i'm gona get my NY state ID, so i'm here to stay for a while =)

Oh, and there's like this sorority type thing, and you have to look a certain way to get in and someone invited me into it ! i'm excited, she's soooo pretty :D

I need to go to the salon and get my nails done sooon! and I want to get my eyebrows thinner <333

Aug. 27th, 2010

(no subject)

Everyday I see myself
I love me even more (it's me I adore)
Ain't nobody got shit on me
I'm the best for sure (I should be l'amour)

V is for Vanity
Everytime I look at me
I turn myself on yeah
I turn myself on yeah
V is for Vanity (what)
Thank you Mom and Daddy cause
I turn myself on yeah (yeah)
I turn myself on yeah



Aug. 23rd, 2010

So Today I met a boy

Some cute guy started talking to me, first he asked me for directions on what train to get on, then it lead to conversation, us hanging out, then me getting his number ;)

Oh, and he's from Michigan too.. it was good to reminisce about the 313 and tiny things about it :D

I do feel sick tho, i'm about to go to bed.. job interview tomorrow at 9:30... Ugh

Aug. 22nd, 2010

It's raining

It's raining and it's boring. So many boys, so little time and not enough interest on my half.. maybe i'm just picky?

Aug. 17th, 2010

(no subject)

So yesterday I pretty much went to Tante Nunja's house with my brother, and on the way there some lady on the bus kept looking at me, and on my way off the bus she stopped me for a second and said "You still have a lot of innocence to you, you look so young, I can see it, please be safe sweetie". Idk, I think people can tell that i'm not from around here, especially when I speak I have an accent lol, but like my brother said, for a girl that's 20 years old living in New York City, I look very young, because most girls here my age all look worn out lol.

Anyway, we went to Tante  Nunja's house and ate and it was so delicious, mmmm I love her cooking, especially the salad.. she needs to open up a reastaurant with my mom.. seriously...

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